Has it really been over 8 years since I last translated an RD-Sounds song?

★ Title: But all that glitters
☆ Album: 眩 -Kurami-
★ Album Artist: 凋叶棕
☆ Vocals: Meramipop (めらみぽっぷ)
★ Lyrics and arrangment: RD-Sounds
☆ Original Titles: Magician’s Melancholy (魔法使いの憂鬱)
★ Website: http://www.rd-sounds.com/

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書き連ねた紙片の山が
いつか視界を覆いつくすまで

kaki tsuraneta shihen no yama ga
itsu ka shikai o ooi tsukusu made

Going so far as to eventually fully shroud my view
with a mountain of paper scraps covered in lists

……これでは上手くいかない
このやり方では辿り着けない
仮定に過程を重ね
そして全てを擲つ堂々巡り

……kore de wa umaku ikanai
kono yarikata de wa tadori tsukenai
katei ni katei o kasane
soshite subete o nageutsu doudou meguri

……This way won’t do the trick
I won’t be able to make it with this method
Hypotheticals overlap with processes
and I go in circles throwing everything away

必死に積み上げたもの
全て崩し去るときの徒労感
短くため息をひとつ
そしてまた始めるんだ

hisshi ni tsumi ageta mono
subete kuzushi saru toki no toroukan
mijikaku tameiki o hitotsu
soshite mata hajimeru n da

It’s that feeling of wasted effort when everything
I desperately built up all comes crashing back down
I let out a single brief sigh
and get started once again

どれほど無駄遣いしただろう
有限の人生を
振り返るその時間でさえも惜しむ程

dore hodo mudadzukai shita darou
yuugen no jinsei o
furi kaeru sono jikan de sae mo oshimu hodo

Just how much of my finite life
have I squandered away?
To the point where I can hardly even afford to spend time looking back

初めて火を灯したあの日のことをーーー
滲む視界の片隅にいつも幻視続けている

hajimete hi o tomoshita ano hi no koto oーーー
nijimu shikai no katasumi ni itsu mo mi tsudzuketeiru

The day when I first lit a fire—
In the corner of my blurry vision, I always keep looking at what’s not there

意味が分かるとかわからないとか
そういう次元の問題ではない
何が書かれているのか
それさえも判然としない迷宮

imi ga wakaru to ka wakaranai to ka
sou iu jigen no monda de wa nai
nani ga kakareteiru no ka
sore sae mo hanzen to shinai rabirinsu

It’s not a problem on the level of
whether you do or don’t understand the meaning
It’s a labyrinth
where it’s unclear what’s even written

書き手の誰一人として
伝える努力を払っていない
見て取る驕りと怠慢の
全てに感じる異種族嫌悪

kakite no dare hitori toshite
tsutaeru doryoku o haratteinai
mite toru ogori to taiman no
subete ni kanjiru ishuzoku keno

Not a single writer is putting enough effort
into getting their points across
From all the arrogance and negligence I take in,
I sense a hatred for those unlike themselves

殊更拒みもしないが
誰も手を引いてもくれはしない
理解できなけりゃそこまで
ああなんて冷たく公平だろう？

kotosara kobami mo shinai ga
dare mo te o hiite mo kure wa shinai
rikai dekinakerya soko made
aa nante tsumetaku kouhei darou?

They won’t go out of their way to reject you,
but nobody will help show you the way
If you can’t understand, that’s the end of that
Ah, could there be a colder equity?

私は間違っているのか？
いっそ間違っているとさえ言われたい
けれどそれはそれできっと
反抗してしまうだろうな

watashi wa machigatteiru no ka?
isso machigatteiru to sae iwaretai
keredo sore wa sore de kitto
hankou shite shimau darou na

Am I the one in the wrong?
At this point, I’d even prefer to be told I am
But even if that were to the case,
I’m sure I’d likely end up rebelling all the same

血を滲ませることの美徳
莫迦らしいことだろう？
だが忘れないいつしか舐めた泥の味

chi o nijimaseru koto no bitoku
baka rashii koto darou?
da ga wasurenai itsu shika nameta doro no aji

The virtue of bleeding
Isn’t it absurd?
And yet I will not forget the taste of mud in my mouth before I knew it

星へと願いを込めたあの日のことをーーー
揺れる心の奥底にいつも滾らせている

hoshi e to negai o kometa ano hi no koto oーーー
yureru kokoro no okusoko ni itsu mo tagiraseteiru

The day I wished upon the stars—
It always makes the blood deep in my wavering heart boil

世界に法則をひとつだけ書き足せるとしたら
全てが必ず報われると記したい

sekai ni ruuru o hitotsu dake kaki taseru to shitara
subete ga kanarazu mukuwareru to shirushitai

If I could add just one rule to this world
I’d like to inscribe that everything shall pay off without fail

この痛みも何もかも得て来たものだから
誰一人にだってくれてやるものか

kono itami mo nani mo kamo ete kita mono dakara
dare hitori ni datte kurete yaru mono ka

My pain and everything else is what I’ve earned,
so like hell I’ll give it away to anyone, no matter who

初めて火を灯した
星へと願いを込めた

hajimete hi o tomoshita
hoshi e to negai o kometa

When I first lit a fire
When I wished upon the stars

あの日のことを！

ano hi no koto o!

It was that day!

優しくないこんな世界に憧れたあの日から
積み上げ続けてきた全てを握りしめ

yasashikunai konna sekai ni akogarete ano hi kara
tsumi age tsudzukete kita subete o nigiri shime

Tightly holding onto everything I’ve continued to build up,
since the day that I began to adore an unkind world like this

この苦しみも何もかも私のものだから
誰一人にだってくれてやるものか

kono kurushimi mo nani mo kamo watashi no mono dakara
dare hitori ni datte kurete yaru mono ka

My suffering and everything else belongs to me,
so like hell I’ll give it away to anyone, no matter who

……誰一人にだって見せてやるものか。

……dare hitori ni datte misete yaru mono ka.

……like hell I’ll show it to anyone, no matter who