セルフ・トーキング 或いは 魔女というガラクタによる魂の在り処への言及のバラード

Requested by Quwanti. The title is long enough as it is in Japanese, so I’ll translate it here instead of the usual title spot. It does give a small clue as to what’s going on in the song, though.
“Self talking, or perhaps, a ballad by trash known as a witch alluding to the whereabouts of her soul”

If there’s a doujinshi to go along with this, like there is for the Tshirt Cat n_tegral songs, then I wish I could read it to get some good context.

Notes: A lot of these words have double meanings (by which I mean the singer sings something different from what’s written), so I tried to accommodate that by combining words, sort of. In one instance, world is sung and illusion is written, so I wrote illusionary world. Same thing for heart and mirror, but the best adjective for heart was cardiac. It sounds somewhat bad, but I can’t think of any better way. Sometimes, “you” is sung as “me,” and vice versa, so I simply wrote that as “our.”
On another note, “to be or not to be” is a very loose translation of its line, I will admit, but I find it very fitting and overall conveys the same meaning.

★ Title: セルフ・トーキング 或いは 魔女というガラクタによる魂の在り処への言及のバラード
☆ Album: 喜劇機械 もしくは、ジェーン・ドゥ達によるパラード
★ Album Artist: 凋叶棕
☆ Vocals: Meramipop (めらみぽっぷ)
★ Lyrics and arrangment: RD-Sounds
☆ Original Titles: The Centennial Festival for Magical Girls (魔法少女達の百年祭)
★ Website: http://www.rd-sounds.com/
・http://rinrin.saiin.net/~vitasexusalice/ma/index2.html


あるいは生きて あるいは事切れて
もとは全て一つのものが

arui wa ikite arui wa koto kirete
moto wa subete hitotsu no mono ga

To be or not to be?
All that once was one,

ありとあらゆる暴虐の果てに
幾多の欠片に別たれた

ari to arayuru bougyaku no hate ni
ikuta no kakera ni wakatareta

at the end of all conceivable tyranny,
has been split into countless fragments

「私の姿は」
「見知らぬ誰かが」
「恣意的に歪め」
「その快楽の為」
「手慰み程度にも」
「興味本位にも」
「私は生まれて」

「anata no sugata wa」
「mi shiranu dare ka ga」
「shiiteki ni yugame」
「sono kairaku no tame」
「te nagusami teido ni mo」
「kyoumi honi ni mo」
「anata wa umarete」

“Our figures”
“Someone unfamiliar”
“Arbitrarily distorts”
“For the pleasure of it”
“So much as to keep themselves occupied”
“To sate their curiousity”
“We are born”

ーー消費されていく。
ーーshouhi sarete iku.

ーーand are expended.

鏡の中にいる。
鏡に映されている。
鏡に囚われている。

kagami no naka ni iru.
kagami ni utsusareteiru.
kagami ni torawareteiru.

Living inside the mirror.
Reflected in the mirror.
Trapped in the mirror.

醜く歪む その全てを忌避して
ただ純粋なものを求め

minikuku yugamu sono subete o kihi shite
tada junsui na mono o motome

Avoiding everything that twists hideously
Only seeking that which is pure

そうしていつか 辿り着く幻想
それは全てが美しい

soushite itsu ka tadori tsuku sekai
sore wa subete ga utsukushii

In doing so, the illusionary world I’ll someday reach
Everything in it is beautiful

「世界の姿は」「世界の姿が」

「sekai no sugata wa」 「sekai no sugata ga」

“The world’s form is ” “what the world’s form shows:”

「貴方を通して」「見せている幻」
「anata o tooshite」「miseteiru maboroshi」

“An illusion” “shown through you”

「鏡に映した」「貴方の幻想は」
「kagami ni utsushita」「anata no sekai wa」

“Your illusionary world” “projected in the mirror”

ーーさぞかし魅力的に映るでしょうね

ーーsazokashi suteki ni utsuru deshou ne

ーーcertainly it’s captivating, is it not?

歪められていく世界の端々から
誰もその本当の姿を知らない
歩み寄って作り上げた世界さえ
その心を映す限りには
全て歪ませて

yugamerarete iku sekai no hashibashi kara
dare mo sono hontou no sugata o shiranai
ayumi yotte tsukuri ageta sekai sae
sono kokoro o utsusu kagiri ni wa
subete yugamasete

From all ends of the world, being twisted,
there’s no one who knows its true form
Even the world itself, built through compromise,
as long as it projects your heart,
causes everything to distort

鏡の中にいる。
鏡に映されている。
鏡に囚われている。

kagami no naka ni iru.
kagami ni utsusareteiru.
kagami ni torawareteiru.

Living inside the mirror.
Reflected in the mirror.
Trapped in the mirror.

・・・きっと今も。

…kitto ima mo.

…Surely, even now.

数え切れない鏡に映る私の姿の私る映に鏡いなれ切え数

kazoekirenai kagami ni utsuru watashi no sugata
kazoekirenai kagami ni utsuru watashi no sugata

My countless figures reflected the mirror ɘʜƚ ni bɘƚɔɘlʇɘɿ ƨɘɿuǫiʇ ƨƨɘlƚnuoɔ yM

美しいその世界はその鏡の美しさゆえ
醜いその世界はその鏡の醜さゆえに

utsukushii sono sekai wa sono kokoro no utsukushisa yue
minikui sono sekai wa sono kokoro no minikusa yue ni

Your beautiful world is because of your cardiac mirror’s beauty
Your ugly world is because of your cardiac mirror’s ugliness

無為に生み出されては消えていくその世界に
魂なき私の嘆きが木霊する

mui ni umi dasarete wa kiete iku sono sekai ni
tamashii naki garakuta no nageki ga kodama suru

In those worlds, born only to fade away with no purpose,
as a soulless piece of trash, my lamentation echoes

何と醜い世界であることかと
己を生み出した創造者を呪っても
その心が投影しだす幻は
また一人新たな私を
産んでいく

nanto minikui sekai de aru koto ka to
onore o umi dashita higaisha o norottemo
sono kokoro ga utsushi dasu maboroshi wa
mata hitori arata na giseisha o
unde iku

How could this world be so ugly?
Even if I curse the suffering creator who bore me,
the illusion your heart projects
gives birth to yet another me
A new victim

この私の魂の在り処など
そんなものは在りなどしないと知っても
無為に生まれ無為に消されていくなら
せめてもの叛逆の願いを
私こそどうか

kono watashi no tamashii no arika nado
sonna mono wa ari nado shinai to shittemo
mui ni umare mui ni kesarete iku nara
semete mo no hangyaku no negai o
anata koso douka

The whereabouts of the soul of someone like me
Such a thing doesn’t exist, I know, but even so,
if we’re to be born and to be erased without purpose,
fulfill our minimal wishes for rebellion
Please, for us

救いの産声となれ。
この世界を逃げ避すのだ。
私は私に語り続けている。

sukui no ubugoe to nare.
kono sekai o nige dasu no da.
watashi wa watashi ni katari tsudzuketeiru.

Become the first cry of salvation.
We will escape this world.
I keep talking to myself.

鏡の中にいる。
鏡に映されている。
鏡に囚われている。

kagami no naka ni iru.
kagami ni utsusareteiru.
kagami ni torawareteiru.

Living inside the mirror.
Reflected in the mirror.
Trapped in the mirror.

・・・そして今も。

…soshite ima mo.

…and so still even now.

私が貴女貴女も私
或いはそこの彼女も私

watashi ga anata anata mo watashi
arui wa soko no kanojo mo watashi

I am you, and you are me
Perhaps that girl there is also me

Valid Reason

While this song is fine, I highly recommend listening to the MUZIK SERVANT Remix. Not only does it improves on the original arrange, but I think it also really complements Tsukiyama’s voice. On a different note, these lyrics are nice, and Tsukiyama did an amazing job singing as well.

★ Title: Valid Reason
☆ Album: Crevice of Darkness
★ Album Artist: Amateras Records
☆ Vocals and lyrics: Tsukiyama Sae (築山さえ)
★ Arrangement: Tracy
☆ Original Title: Rigid Paradise (リジッドパラダイス)
★ Website: http://amateras-records.com/


ずっと燻っていた この胸の奥で
忘れちゃいけないはずだったのに
固く閉ざされた 記憶の扉の
鍵を見つけたら何がまっているの

zutto kusubutteita kono mune no oku de
wasurecha ikenai hazu datta noni
kataku tozasareta kioku no tobira no
kagi o mitsuketara nani ga matteiru no

What will be waiting once I find the key
to the door of my forever secluded memories
that I wasn’t supposed to forget,
yet were firmly locked deep in my heart?

深い闇に濡れた過去
振り返らないと誓ったから

fukai yami ni nureta kako
furi kaeranai to chikatta kara

I vowed never to look back upon
the past, wet with a deep darkness, after all

夢咲き乱れる 楽園なんてなくて
理不尽な嘘が溢れていた
何を守るため 私はここにいるの
思い出せなくて泣いていた

yume saki midareru rakuen nante nakute
rifujin na uso ga afureteita
nani o mamoru tame watashi wa koko ni iru no
omoi dasenakute naiteita

There’s no such thing as a paradise with dreams blooming everywhere
It was only brimming with absurd lies
What am I here to protect?
Unable to recall, I was crying

ずっと眠っていた この胸の奥の
忘れちゃいけないはずの感情
固く閉ざされた 記憶の扉の
鍵を見つけたら君に伝えたい

zutto nemutteita kono mune no oku no
wasurecha ikenai hazu no kanjou
kataku tozasareta kioku no tobira no
kagi o mitsuketara kimi ni tsutaetai

The emotions that I was never supposed to forget
have been slumbering forever deep in my heart
I want to tell you once I find the key
to the firmly shut door of my memories

どんなに辛い戦いも
もう拒まないと誓ったから

donna ni tsurai tatakai mo
mou kobamanai to chikatta kara

No matter how tough a fight is
I vowed I wouldn’t say no to it anymore

眩しく輝く 楽園じゃなくたって
生きる理由は見つけられる
君を守るため 私はここにいるよ
二度と忘れたりしないから

mabushiku kagayaku rakuen janaku tatte
ikiru riyuu wa mitsukerareru
kimi o mamoru tame watashi wa koko ni iru yo
nido to wasuretari shinai kara

So even though there’s no paradise shining bright,
I’ll be able to find a reason to live
I’m here in order to protect you
Never again will I forget that

記憶の欠片を 一つ一つ集めて
約束の場所へ走り出す
君への思いを この手に握りしめて
今すぐにでも会いに行くよ

kioku no kakera o hitotsu hitotsu atsumete
yakusoku no basho e hashiri dasu
kimi e no omoi o kono te ni nigiri shimete
ima sugu ni demo ai ni yuku yo

Gathering the fragments of my memories one by one
I start running to the place we promised upon
Clenching in hand my thoughts towards you,
I want to go see you as soon as possible

眩しく輝く 楽園じゃなくたって
生きる理由は見つけられた
君を守るため 私は生きているよ
二度と忘れたりしないから

mabushiku kagayaku rakuen janaku tatte
ikiru riyuu wa mitsukerareta
kimi o mamoru tame watashi wa ikiteiru yo
nido to wasuretari shinai kara

Even though there’s no paradise shining bright,
I was able to find a reason to live
I’m alive in order to protect you
Never again will I forget that

Meteora Mind

By all means, a party song.

Note: I got these lyrics from Xiami. In the last stanza there, they had it written 「味わせて」, but that’s not grammatically correct and my ears picked up 「味あわせて」, so I went with that instead.

★ Title: Meteora Mind
☆ Album: Crevice of Darkness
★ Album Artist: Amateras Records
☆ Vocals: Tsukiyama Sae (築山さえ)
★ Lyrics: M.I.O
☆ Arrangement: Masayoshi Minoshima
★ Original Title: Border Land
☆ Website: http://amateras-records.com/


期待、舞い上がる
露わになる
理性さえ 契りさえ・・・
置き去って ついていく

kitai, mai agaru
arawa ni naru
risei sae chigiri sae…
oki satte tsuite yuku

My expectations take flight
They become exposed
My bonds and rationality…
I’ll go so far as to abandon them and follow you

地上にない この感触
アナタだけ アナタだけ
この手握られたまま
Midnight・・・

chijou ni nai kono kanshoku
anata dake anata dake
kono te nigirareta mama
Midnight…

There’s no feeling like this on the surface
You’re the only one, you’re the only one
who remained holding my hand as it’s
midnight…

指を解くたび
愛しくなる
足りないよ 足りないよ
無防備にまた、ねだる

yubi o hodoku tabi
itoshiku naru
tarinai yo tarinai yo
muboubi ni mata, nedaru

Every time our fingers unravel
you become dear to me
It’s not enough, it’s not enough
Defenselessly I plead to you again

地上にない この感触
アナタだけ アナタだけ
味あわせてくれたの
Midnight・・・

chijou ni nai kono kanshoku
anata dake anata dake
ajiawasete kureta no
Midnight…

There’s no feeling like this on the surface
You’re the only one, you’re the only one
who let me taste and savour it
Midnight…

Cirno,Q?

Requested by Mark, I present philosophical Cirno.

The further she questions who she is, and what she is, the deeper she falls into a positive feedback loop.

★ Title: Cirno,Q?
☆ Album: 求 -Motome-
★ Album Artist: 凋叶棕
☆ Vocals: Meramipop (めらみぽっぷ)
★ Lyrics and arrangment: RD-Sounds
☆ Original Titles: Tomboyish Girl in Love (おてんば恋娘)
★ Website: http://www.rd-sounds.com/


月の夜。
静けさと。
その暗さに。
身を任せ。

tsuki no yoru.
shizukesa to.
sono kurasa ni.
mi o makase.

It’s a moonlit night.
To its silence.
And its darkness.
I leave my body.

一人きり膝を抱え。
そっと問いかける。

hitorikiri hiza o kakae.
sotto toi kakeru.

Sitting all alone, arms around my knees.
I quietly begin to question.

自分という命のこと
自分という存在のこと

jibun to iu inochi no koto
jibun to iu sonzai no koto

About my own life
About my own existence

生まれて死んだならば
どこに行くのだろう?

umarete shinda naraba
doko ni iku no darou?

If I died after being born,
I wonder, where would I go?

ひとの様に…?
或いは別の…?

hito no you ni…?
arui wa betsu no…?

Where humans go…?
Or perhaps elsewhere…?

ただ一人で考えていたい 答が出なくても
それはなんの萌芽か

tada hitori de kangaeteitai kotae ga denakutemo
sore wa nan no houga ka

I want to keep thinking about this all alone, even if no answer shows up
What is that a sign of?

いつしかここに生まれていた
己というものを振り返るのなら

itsu shika koko ni umareteita
onore to iu mono o furi kaeru no nara

If I look back on that known as myself
who, in but a moment, was born here,

いつしかここに疑問を持ち
思索に沈みゆくその深さだけ
何かを踏み外すのか

itsu shika koko ni gimon o mochi
shian ni shizumi yuku sono fukasa dake
nani ka o fumi hazusu no ka

will I losing my footing somewhere
matching how deep I sink in speculation,
calling “here” into question before I realize it?

“この”外側へ…?

“kono” sotogawa e…?

Beyond “this”…?

自分と。
自分以外。
自分は。
何者か。

jibun to.
jibun igai.
jibun wa.
nani mono ka.

Myself and.
That which is not myself.
Myself?
Who am I?

何が一緒で。 何が違うか。
それが大切か。

nani ga issho de. nani ga chigau ka.
sore ga taisetsu ka.

What’s the same? And what’s different?
Is that important?

自分という存在が
他者と違うのなら

jibun to iu sonzai ga
hoka no minna to chigau no nara

If the existence that is myself
is different from everybody else,

そうあるべく生きるとして
何をするべきだろう?

sou aru beku ikiru toshite
nani o suru beki darou?

in order to live as such,
just what should I do?

人のように…?
或いは別の…?

hito no you ni…?
arui wa betsu no…?

What humans do…?
Or what others do…?

薄氷の上を渡る様な 不安定な自問自答
その危うさに両足を踏んで”哲学”を進めるなら
拙いその足取りでも

hakuhyou no ue o wataru you na fuantei na jimonjitou
sono ayausa ni ryouashi o funde “bouken” o susumeru nara
tsutanai sono ashidori demo

It’s an unstable internal debate, like walking across thin ice
If I tread that danger with both of my feet and carry on my “philosophic adventure”
despite the unreliable footing…

いつしか此処で思考を得た
己というものに思い馳せるなら

itsu shika koko de shikou o eta
onore to iu mono ni omoi haseru nara

If I set my thoughts towards myself
who, in but a moment, gained consciousness,

いつしかそれに疑問を持ち
新たに問い直すその多さだけ
何かが変わっていくのか

itsu shika sore ni gimon o mochi
arata ni toi naosu sono oosa dake
nani ka ga kawatte iku no ka

will something change
matching how much I newly requestion,
calling “that” into question before I realize it?

――これ以上先に 踏み入ってはいけない。

――kore ijou saki ni fumi itte wa ikenai.

――I must not step further beyond this point.

言い知れぬ予感にも似た予兆を感じては慄く

ii shirenu yokan ni mo nita yochou o kanjite wa ononoku

I shudder upon feeling an omen, much like a foreboding beyond words

それは己の内に満たした新たなる可能性か?

sore wa onore no uchi ni mitashita arata naru kanousei ka?

Could it be a new possibility fulfilled within myself?

循環し
保つ同一性
投影された 自然のその姿
それらの外へ――外側へと。
自分というものの存在意義を
問いかけ続けることで…

junkan shi
tamotsu douitsusei
touei sareta shizen no sono sugata
sorera no soto e――sotogawa e to.
jibun to iu mono no sonzai igi o
toi kake tsudzukeru koto de…

Circulating
holding identity
Nature’s very form projected
Towards the other side―― beyond those.
By continuing to question the meaning of existence
of something like myself…

いつしかここに現象した
己というものを定義するのなら

itsu shika koko ni genshou shita
onore to iu mono o teigi suru no nara

If I define that which is myself
who, in but a moment, materialized here,

いつしか全てに疑問を持ち
その意味を見出すその重さだけ
何かを求めていくのか

itsu shika subete ni gimon o mochi
sono imi o midasu sono omosa dake
nani ka o motomete iku no ka

will I seek something
matching the weight of the meaning I discover,
calling everything into question before I realize it?

“その”外側へ…?

“sono” sotogawa e…?

Beyond “that”…?