Originally translated a year and a half ago, but because I was (and still somewhat am) unsure about the final line, I never published it. This and Creme de franboise are my favourites of the album, though it took a while for this one to grow on me.
☆ Title: Wall of Flowers
★ Album: POP | CULTURE 9
☆ Album Artist: Alstroemeria Records
★ Vocals: mikicco
☆ Lyrics: ayame
★ Arrangement: Masayoshi Minoshima
☆ Original: Hartmann’s Youkai Girl (ハルトマンの妖怪少女)
★ Website: http://alst.net/
何度も繰り返しても 暗闇が目を覆う
思い通りにならない 逃げたのは私
nando mo kuri kaeshitemo kurayami ga me o oou
omoidoori ni naranai nigeta no wa watashi
No matter how much I try, darkness veils my eyes Things won’t go the way I want them to – The one who ran away was me
風が吹く空は どこまでも青く
見えなくなるまで 羽ばたくの 遠く 遠く
kaze ga fuku sora wa doko made mo aoku
mienaku naru made habataku no tooku tooku
Wind blowing throughout, the sky is completely blue Until I can’t be seen, I’m going to fly far far away
君が羨ましい だから弱くもなる 届かないよ
kimi ga urayamashii dakara yowaku mo naru todokanai yo
I envy you, which also makes me weak I’m not going to make it
千切れる腕の痛みも 忘れたと言い聞かせ
今ならやり直せるの？何にだってなるよ
chigireru ude no itami mo wasureta to ii kikase
ima nara yari naoseru no? nan ni datte naru yo
I tell myself that I’ve forgotten the pain of my arm being torn off Maybe now, I could try again? I’ll become whatever I need to be
夜に咲く花は 人知れず泣いて
光の落ちない 月の下 輝いてる
yoru ni saku hana wa hito shirezu naite
hikari no ochinai tsuki no shita kagayaiteru
The flower that blooms at night cries in secret Shining underneath the moon, where the light doesn’t fall
そんな当たり前に きっとなりたかった 戯言だね
sonna atarimae ni kitto naritakatta zaregoto da ne
I wanted to look stern, as if it was natural What a joke
Translation fueled by pain. I have completely lost sight of my purpose in life. I have a physics degree, but I’m not a scientist. I almost have an education degree, but I’m not becoming a teacher. Instead, I’m throwing it all away and using my JP skills to become a VTuber.
☆ Title: ハッピーになりたい
★ Album: フライングベスト～知らないの? 巷で噂のダメ天使～
☆ Album Artist: ナナヲアカリ (Nanawo Akari)
★ Published by: Sony Music Associated Records
★ Vocals: ナナヲアカリ (Nanawo Akari)
☆ Arrangement, composition and lyrics: Neru
patto me o samashite
genkaku o shikyou seikatsu wa shibou
isso kakuu de ii tte
isoge to futon nidone wa muron
isshou, yume de odotte
haite sutaru manee naite saru mane
kekkyoku, kinou ni sugatte kou shite mamou shite
soshite owatte iku n desu ne
Suddenly I wake up Homesick for hallucinations, to live is to die Much preferring fiction, I hurry to my bed, back to sleep, no question My whole life, I’ve been dancing in a dream, spitting out money like it’s going out of fashion, crying, imitating others After all, I’m clinging to yesterday – like this I’ll wear away and then I’ll meet my end
happii ni naritai boku wa naritai
mou taisou tsumannai jinsei nante
risetto shichaitai
hayari no wan koorasu bakari ga
furasshubakku suru
happii ni narenai boku wa narenai
ai nante ubatte utatte shimaeba
sorekkiri jan
dou nandai dou nandai ongaku no kami sama
I want to be happy, that’s what I want I want to take my huge waste of time life and reset it already All that I flashback to is the first part of a catchy song I can’t become happy, I can’t If I stole love and sung about it wouldn’t that just be the end? What do I do? What do I do, god of music?
sutoppu, jikan ga tomatte
kusatte yuku shikou saite chiru kurou
kekkyoku, doryoku ga nanda
kazamuki shidai ayaushi kitai
Stopping, time comes to a halt My thought process is rotting, struggles bloom and scatter In the end, what good is effort? It’s all on a whim, having expectations is dangerous
maa, mandee chuuzudee
uenzudee saasudee furaidee
itsuwaru ni wa muri ga aru
saidai no ronsouten wa itatte pureen da
doitsu ga hannin da
Well, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday You can only fake things for so long The greatest point of dispute is exceedingly plain Who’s the culprit here?
ないものねだりし続けてるなら
それ 僕にちょうだいよ
どうせ君は使わないんでしょ？
nai mono nedari shi tsudzuketeru nara
sore boku ni choudai yo
douse kimi wa tsukawanai desho?
If you’re not going to be satisfied with what you’ve got, then give it to me! You’re not gonna make use of it anyway, right?
rakkii de aritai boku wa aritai
issai no fuan mo urei mo zenbu o
keshite shimaitai
onamida choudai no kuraimakkusu o negatteiru
rakkii ja tarinai sore ja tarinai
doramachikku de fanshii kurai no
uta ja sukuenai
sou da tte sou da tte shikatte kure
douka
I want to be lucky, that’s what I want I want to get rid of every last bit of anxiety and distress I’m wishing for the climax to this sob story I’m not lucky enough, it’s not enough It’ll take more than a dramatic and fancy song to save me Be stern, be stern and tell me that’s just how it is please
happii ni naritai boku wa naritai
mou taisou tsumannai jinsei nante
risetto shichaitai
hayari no wan koorasu bakari ga
furasshubakku suru
happii ni narenai boku wa narenai
ai nante ubatte utatte shimaeba
sorekkiri jan
dou nandai dou nandai ongaku no kami sama
I want to be happy, that’s what I want I want to take my huge waste of time life and reset it already All that I flashback to is the first part of a catchy song I can’t become happy, I can’t If I stole love and sung about it wouldn’t that just be the end? What do I do? What do I do, god of music?
Full credits to Kafkafuura for the original Bad Apple!! translation. The TOS remix adds a lot; it’s basically an entirely new song at this point. I’m not usually a fan of rap, but I did get hooked on this. Welcome to the Bad Apple Expanded Universe.
☆ Title: Bad Apple!! (TOS Remix)
★ Album: 10th Anniversary Bad Apple!! feat.nomico PHASE 3
☆ Album Artist: Alstroemeria Records
★ Vocals: nomico
・抹 (Matsu)
・ｙｔｒ
☆ Lyrics: Haruka
・抹 (Matsu)
・ｙｔｒ
★ Arrangement: Masayoshi Minoshima
☆ Remix: 魂音泉 (TamaOnSen)
★ Original Title: Bad Apple!!
☆ Website: http://alst.net/
nagarete ku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienai wa sou shiranai?
Even as time flows on the listlessness, don’t you see it spinning ’round and ’round? I can’t even see my heart – it’s left me. Have you seen it anywhere?
自分から 動くこともなく 時の隙間に 流され続けて
知らないわ 周りのことなど 私は私 それだけ？
jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsudzukete
shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake?
I don’t move or act on my own, but leave myself to be swept away into the crevices of time I don’t know or care about what’s around me. I’m myself, that’s it. Is that all you have to say?
yume miteru? nani mo mitenai? kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba?
kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Am I dreaming, am I not? It’d be a waste of words to say. Even my own words? Should I be sad? It’s a waste of energy. It’s better to feel nothing and float on
tomadou kotoba ataeraretemo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Even if you try to make me think, my heart’s not paying attention If I were to actually do something, if I were to change everything, I’d paint it black
ayumu koto sae tsukareru dake yo hito no koto nado shiri mo shinai wa
konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru?
Just walking is tiring to me. Do you really think I have the capacity to think of others? Even if this me I am were capable of change, if I really could, would I then become white?
kore wa towa no toki koeru forbidden fruit
denai kotae o sagasu tame yo o tsumuide
mata rinne waga tame ni saku Alstroemeria
mazeta Yinyang ga kyomu o katachidzukuru
What’s good?
yume to mirai to sekai to anata no sei ni suru
Medicine kawari no hitori no furi ga
umaku naru hodo ni kaku naru maboroshi
uwa no sora de tsumihoroboshi no Laugh
This is the forbidden fruit, transcending time eternal Spinning the night to find an answer that won’t show itself Rebirth, again the Alstroemeria blooms for my sake Yinyang mixed together creates nothingness What’s good? I’ll place the blame on dreams, the future, the world, and you Rather than take medicine, I play pretend The better I get at it, the deeper the illusions become Head in the clouds, as atonement I laugh
“wakannai” dake ga jikan to nagareru
ittai itsu ni nareba sekai ga kawaru
rinkaku ga bokete jikkan ga tokete
ki ga tsukya kodoku to kage dake ga odoru
Black to White sore wa Bluff to Why
tojita kokoro ga sagasu hitotsu no kai
moshi mo no saki ni te o nobasu to
yubi no saki ni fureta Bad Apple!!
Only ignorance flows with time Just how long will it take for the world to change? The boundaries grow blurry, real feelings dissolve when I realize I’m only dancing with my shadow Black and white, more like bluff and why My heart, locked away, searches for one solution If I reached out towards the what if’s, I’d feel on my fingertips a Bad Apple!!
doko ka no dare ka no namida ni imi mo nai kaiwa
kyoumi mo nai shi nani mo shiranai wa
jimonjitou wa maiban shoujikimono ga usotsuki
hata kara mireba jiboujiki
kaji wa mukougishi nagasareru mama kecchaku wa mou jiki
nani mo shitakunai dake?
tarareba hanashi mo koko made
People from places crying over pointless conversations, I don’t give a shit and I don’t care to know I lose myself in thought every night – the honest are liars Look closely and you’ll see desperation There’s a fire on the far shore – leaving myself to the flow, the end is near Do I just want to do nothing? The hypotheticals end here
yume miteru? naze da ka ima wa mou nani mo mienai
kedarusa to memai subete arienai
kokoro ni otosu kage wa kienai
kagami ni utsuru wa honne ka joudan
wazuka na kyoukan sore sura nozomazu
kusari ochiru dare ni mo todokazu
kitto kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Am I dreaming now? For some reason I can’t see a thing anymore Between the dizziness and listlessness, nothing seems possible The shadows cast upon my heart won’t fade Is what I see in the mirror integrity or jest? I don’t want even a bit of sympathy I’ll rot and fall, unable to reach anyone but I’m sure it’d be a waste of words even if I spoke up
tomadou kotoba tada ima wa mou nani mo kikitakunai
mabuta toji kurai yami no naka sumai
hitori kiri ni natte dono kurai
kanashimi nado naku itsu mo fuan ni naru sore mo nanto naku
mite minu furi o shite tada uwa no sora
zutto ugokanai de kono mama?
moshi, subete kaeru no nara
Thought provoking words? I don’t want to hear another thing right now Closing my eyelids, living in the dark, how long has it been since I’ve become alone I don’t feel sad, though I always get anxious Even then I somehow pretend not to notice, head in the clouds Will I always be like this, unable to do a thing? If I did, everything would change
muda na jikan ni mirai wa aru no? konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no?
watashi no koto o iitai naraba kotoba ni suru no nara「roku de nashi」
Is there a future for time spent worthlessly? Can you really say I’m here, in this place? If you want to talk about me, if you want to put me into words, I’m a ‘Bad Apple’
konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no? konna jikan ni watashi wa iru no?
konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru?
Can you really say I’m here, in this place? Can you really say I’m here, in this time? Even if this me I am were capable of change, if I really could, would I then become white?
yume miteru? naze da ka ima wa mou nani mo mienai
kedarusa to memai subete arienai
kokoro ni otosu kage wa kienai
kagami ni utsuru wa honne ka joudan
wazuka na kyoukan sore sura nozomazu
kusari ochiru dare ni mo todokazu
kitto kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Am I dreaming now? For some reason I can’t see a thing anymore Between the dizziness and listlessness, nothing seems possible The shadows cast upon my heart won’t fade Is what I see in the mirror integrity or jest? I don’t want even a bit of sympathy I’ll rot and fall, unable to reach anyone but I’m sure it’d be a waste of words even if I spoke up
tomadou kotoba tada ima wa mou nani mo kikitakunai
mabuta toji kurai yami no naka sumai
hitori kiri ni natte dono kurai
kanashimi nado naku itsu mo fuan ni naru sore mo nanto naku
mite minu furi o shite tada uwa no sora
zutto ugokanai de kono mama?
moshi, subete kaeru no nara
Thought provoking words? I don’t want to hear another thing right now Closing my eyelids, living in the dark, how long has it been since I’ve become alone I don’t feel sad, though I always get anxious Even then I somehow pretend not to notice, head in the clouds Will I always be like this, unable to do a thing? If I did, everything would change
ugoku no naraba ugoku no naraba subete kowasu wa subete kowasu wa
kanashimu naraba kanashimu naraba watashi no kokoro shiroku kawareru?
If I were to actually move, do something, I’d destroy everything, everything If I were to be sad, if I were to be sad, then would my heart become white?
anata no koto mo watashi no koto mo subete no koto mo mada shiranai no
omoi mabuta wo aketa no naraba subete kowasu no nara kuro ni nare!!!
I don’t know you, I don’t know myself, nor do I know anything else But if I am to open my heavy eyelids, if I am to destroy everything, I’ll paint it all black!
Commissioned by Anonymous. I usually don’t take commissions, but since I was fairly confident I could do a good job translating this, I accepted it. It seems to me that this song is about someone who wants to die, but deep inside wants to live. In order to convince herself, she kept needing to find a reason to die.
watashi o koroshite to itta ne naki warainagara
koroshite to itta koroshite to itta
nani hitotsu kaerarezu ni
watashi no, hanashi wa
saisho kara owatteita
I told you to kill me, didn’t I? While smiling and crying I told you to kill me, I told you to kill me Unable to change a single thing my story was over before it even began
koroshite to itta ne iki tsudzuketakute
koroshite to itta koroshite to itta
arifureta hibi no mae ni
inochi to, kotoba wa
kakera mo nokoranai
I told you to kill me, didn’t I? Still wanting to live, I told you to kill me, I told you to kill me Before ordinary days, not a scrap of life, nor words remain
暗く深い藍、我侭も飲み込んでくれる
枯れた葉は綺麗で、悲しい表情を
何時繰り返してしまったのだろう
kuraku fukai ao, wagamama mo nomi konde kureru
kareta ha wa kirei de, kanashii hyoujou o
itsu kuri kaeshite shimatta no darou
A dark, deep indigo swallows all my selfishness Withered leaves are so pretty – When could it have been that they ended up putting a sad expression on my face again?
きっと心が影に陰に飲まれて 不幸になった
きっと心はぐしゃぐしゃになったんだ
kitto kokoro ga kage ni kage ni nomarete fukou ni natta
kitto kokoro wa gushagusha ni natta n da
I’m sure my heart lost its joy as it was swallowed by shadows within shadows I’m sure my heart is no longer even recognizable
koroshite to itta ne itami o wasurete
koroshite to itta koroshite to itta
sekai wa owaranai n darou
sayonara, mata ne to
hanbun uso o tsuita
I told you to kill me, didn’t I? Forgetting the pain, I told you to kill me, I told you to kill me The world won’t end, you know “Good bye, see you later” Half of that was a lie
mou ichido aragau yo watashi no shiawase ni
wazuka ni tookatta
zankoku na sore wa
iro azayaka de
hitori hitori ga aisareteita
ano hanataba ni watashi wa inai
One more time, I’ll struggle to fight against my happiness A little bit distant, how cruel it is that the vivid bouquet loved by each and every person doesn’t include me in it
殺してと言ったね 独りにしないで
声も出せない あの花の様に
最後に君に会えてよかった
ありがとう
koroshite to itta ne hitori ni shinai de
koe mo dasenai ano hana no you ni
saigo ni kimi ni aete yokatta
arigatou
I told you to kill me, didn’t I? Don’t leave me alone Just like that flower, I can’t let out my voice I’m glad that I was able to meet you in the end Thank you
何処かに閉じ込めていた 命を預けて
殺してと言った
殺してよ
doko ka ni toji kometeita inochi o azukete
koroshite to itta
koroshite yo
Leaving my life in your care, which I had locked away somewhere I told you to kill me Kill me.
